i am so damn absent-minded.

everytime i charge my phone in the morning as i eat breakfast, i always forget to take it out and bring it with me to school. it so happened that i charged my phone this morning and here i am with no means of communication. it's almost like a goddamn phenomena! damn thing happens everytime. i'm beginning to think that my stupidity is going beyond the limits of the human mind.

anyway, fears must always be confronted, right? so i got over half of my fear of dentists when i got a pyogenic surgery (my gum got sliced) 2 weeks ago. today, i'm going back to that very same dental surgeon to have my gum checked up, and probably she'll remove the remaining stitches. owch!

slice my ass to hell, i still get freaked out by the mere smell of a dental clinic! they're kinda scary. it's like they study all those years as med students and they study "torture-the-children-and-youth arts" or something like that.

compre is 8 days away, and i am not the least bit ready. well, i do know some shit here and there, but it's my damn confidence level i'm worried about. not to mention that i haven't written anything for my Ramon Magsaysay student essay. i don't even want to take the comps. sheesh, exams should have never been inveted. i am totally against the fact that your academic destiny is to be decided by mere scribblings on a piece of paper.

well, i guess i better prepare for that dental appointment. she might pull the stitches out so that's another ouchie. anyway, you can all go to hell, while i continue to feel the pains of a very beautiful life. how ironic.

wow, i still have a seemingly boring life here at school.. i would have really wanted something "radical" to happen.. something like a t-rex attack or a rhino stampede or some epidemic that hits the lasallian brothers, but no, nothing like that around here happens..

it's almost depressing to think that compre exams are just around the corner and i have a low confidence level.. this may be bad and i might not pass.. then that would lead to my being delayed and then i would have to stay here for an additional year.. OH FUCK! that would be really boring.. and to think that i won't get my t-rex attack..

now that i think about it, i really wanna steal an LCD projector from the IMS.. hah! damn good thing it isn't IRS coz if it was, then i'd be in real deep shit..

another thing that i've been working on is the lightsaber clip.. so far, that's the only thing keeping me going as of the moment.. we still haven't gotten a good fight sequence going.. hey, we aren't martial artists!

as far as the word "depressed" goes, the current situation here in this country has been eating up my ass already.. i wanna kick some idiot government officials ass but i'm only a student and this country's idiot officials would rather hide from the hand of justice than face the music.. ah bullshit, all i'm doing is rambling mindlessly like some shitfaced freak with no sense of direction or purpose.. oh well, that's life!

wow, i still feel as if i got hit by a truck!

i'm still feeling the after effects of my mouth operation which happened last wednesday. shit, it hurts..

well, anyway, there's nothing much to talk about since the gloriagate issue is such a hit. it seems that nowadays, this issue is part of every family's dinnertime conversations. then one thing leads to this, and one thing leads to that, and before you know it, shit happens!

i would just like to comment on what the hell is going on. after reading my uncle's essay regarding the political issues today, i now see that this country is desperately trying to be something that it can never be: ROME II.

yes, this country can never be like one of the greatest civilizations to ever exist. the government is either trying too hard or not trying at all to achieve the seemingly impossible. and because of this, the whole thing is blowing right back in their faces. how ironic (and stupid).

when the americans formed a government here during the 1920's or 1930's (i'm not sure), the filipinos forced the issue that they were a people ready and deserving of a self governement. of course, the americans thought otherwise. but the filipino people were too stupid to listen and it gave the americans no choice but to hand over the country to its "rightful people".

we were indeed not ready for a government. we never were. the americans knew that there was no chance in hell that we'd actually be politically proficient and shit like that.

i would like to comment about certain maggots in society who all have two things thing in common: they're stupid, and they want the presidency. these people are none other than susan roces, erap estrada, congressman escudero, eddie villanueva, ping lacson, nene pimintel, and kit tatad. why the hell would they act so irrational if they did not have the desire for something greater? so simple to read, the minds of the weak are.

it is with deep regret that i self-proclaim the filipino people to be the "tainted people" of the planet. if all we know is dirty politics and money worship, then we don't deserve god's ultimate gift: the gift of life.

the lasallian institution, especially the student council, has been an example of such. premature decisions and hasty manifestos are things that can lead to more problems. how do we know that a resignation will solve the problem? for all we know, the replacement of the president will do the same thing, if not, be even dirtier. they cannot see this. forcing a resignation or an impeachment is a gamble that is too risky - one that is not worth taking.

all i ask is to for the filipino people to stop all this madness. let us not make a sorry-ass history which will be passed on to our future generations.

damn, i'm starting to feel like an atheist!

i just don't get christianity anymore.. sorry to those devout christians, but i'm feeling christianity is all bullshit.. preach to us freedom, fine.. but then why say that if you don't believe in God, then you might as well go to hell? so does that mean we are obliged, whether we like it or not, to believe in God because we'll be sent to hell if we don't? that's crazy! that would be very contradictory to the context of free will.. i can accept free will with responsibility, but free will with obligation is a big no-no.

another thing i hate about christianity is all the fucking rituals that are imposed on us. one thing i hate are the rules for lenten season. no meat on fridays and you have to fast! bullshit! how the hell do you plan to survive? or better yet, why do all these things? is it to impress God? to earn points in heaven? why should we even follow what Christ did in the desert? if he's really merciful, then he wouldn't want us to kill ourselves by fasting. what the hell kind of religion goes against suicide but preaches for us to do something that can lead to suicide. what's worse, they say that it's all for our salvation and for the glory of God. BULLSHIT! if the body is the temple of the holy spirit, then fasting should be a big NO-NO! christianity is so fucking illogical and contradictory.

what about these other fucked-up religious authorities? they always tell us that if we don't believe in God, then God will send us to hell. well i have news for God and those religious authorities. If God gave us free will, the He should be ready to accept the fact that we can freely choose to believe in Him or not. but seeing the way things are going, it seems that God placed limits on free will. believing in christianity is like blind conformity!

don't give me the excuse that "it's all written in the bible" because the bible has long lost its authenticity. it's been edited millions of times already. the bible preaches to us to always tell the truth, but truth be told, the bible is lying to us because it has something hidden. for all we know, all the gibberish written in the world's best seller isn't really what God uttered. and what's so wrong with Christ having a wife and child? wouldn't that make God a granddaddy? or maybe He doesn't want to seem old? c'mon, Christ was HUMAN! humans naturally fall! and besides, sex is also one of the most sacred things ever given so i don't see any point in trying to hide things.

i hate it already. i'm so fucking confused that i don't want to believe in anything anymore!

hello again!

it's funny that i don't post that often.. well, i am a very busy person.. anyway, not many people visit this blog and read so i see no point in updating it on a scheduled basis.. i mean, who cares? right?

but that's not the point.. this is a rant page so i'm gonna fucking rant all i want..

let me see.. the agenda for today.. i don't really know..

it's kind of weird that someone claims to know something that i don't, and that she says a certain teacher "wants" to talk this issue out with me.. now this certain someone is so intent on proving to me that this issue is true, so i challenge her to schedule a meeting with the teacher, me, the certain someone, and her moronic cohort (who was probabaly the one who spread the issue anyway, and will be further referred to in this rant as "spam robot").. but to my surprise, this certain boogerbrain says that she can't schedule a meeting, and that if ever there was a meeting, then she and spam robot wouldn't go.. wow.. and to think she was intent on proving the issue..

but wait! you may be wondering what the issue is.. well, i am almost certain that the issue at hand here is if i did indeed court the spam robot.. yuck! excuse me! i have more taste than that..

so what is the conclusion to all this? well, i may not be a very good logician, but my conclusion is that this certain someone doesn't have the guts to prove any issue involving me and the evil spam robot.. she's also probably really sore that santa didn't give her any presents last christmas.. and she's taking her frustration out on me.. hehehe.. what did i do? they started it.. i never wanted any part of it.. but i guess spam robot is desperate to get a good humping.. what a long story!

i just have to laugh to myself.. ever since we ditched those two whackos, our grades have gone up, and their grades have gone down.. i don't know if it's just me or if it's some kind of karma.. i'm actually starting to believe the shit coming out of my mouth..

hmm.. i still need to do my homework.. but i still have more to rant about so here goes!

about some shit that really piss me off here in la salle.. hmm.. one of which is the cybernook.. i really hate it when you want to use a computer but then the people using the computers keep going on friendster.. and it takes them hours just to finish their monkey business! i think it was just last week.. i was at the nook, waiting for this one girl to finish.. she took 45 minutes just to finish her friendster business, and after she logged out, she logged back in 30 seconds after the logout! shit! and then it took her another 30 minutes to finish! grrr! i wish that this university kept friendster on their restricted sites..

well, i think this'll be it for today.. the comlab is being prepared for the next class.. still got a cla day meeting at 5pm.. well, it's off to the library!!

ja!

wow, i'm so fucking productive!

i'm in the cybernook doing bullshit when i should be studying for my philsci exam.. why does philsci have to be so damn confusing anyway? what the hell is it with falsificationism, logical positivism, and quantum bullshit? why can't raj be a little more interesting? i sure don't come out of his classroom in awe just because of his discussions.. jeez..

gotta go

how do you dampen someone's school spirit?

personally, i don't know how other schools or universities do it, but La Salle sure came up with a creative way to dampen a student's school spirit. it's a gimick called "priority enrollment", and boy does it suck.

the problem is the people who oriented me never gave me information on how this enrollment system could easily bring my entire self-esteem down the drain. and now i have to put up with the fact that i can't get into good subjects and good teachers because all the slots are filled up...

wait, am i going too fast? ok, i'll slow down a bit. you see, you can only avail of priority enrollment if you have never failed a subject in any term. that means you should not incurr any failure in 3 years. unfortunately, failure is inevitable. this is the part where it gets really ugly.

i failed 3 subjects already, and even if i am able to pass those failures by retaing the failed subjects, i can no longer avail of priority enrollment because i STILL failed. so basically, there's no use in retaking these subjects. it's as if the school is trying to say "you're a failure so you're not worth our time. you shouldn't even be studying."

now doesn't that dampen your spirit!

here's something even worse...

everytime i look at my friends, i feel really bad for myself not only because they get to have to good slots, but also because sometimes, they have to change their entire schedule just because of me. and i don't like that.

well, it's almost time for my enrollment, and as usual, i'm not getting any good slots. oh well, i know that existentialism would say that all this is my fault. it always is anyway. no good in trying to argue. i'm still feeling bad and my spirit is way down in the dumps. happy reading.